What God wants?

It's so confusing. the Creator has a thousands way to make his creation still knowing His Power. For some people who still believe in God, when they got something, they believe that God has a message for them, while another one will give bad assumption. Me? I don't know in which part?

It's so gloomy, and i am questioning what God wants from me? He makes me happy at the moment, then sad suddenly. Up and Down. Life is so beautiful, never flat, and full of color. Hmmm, unfortunately that words is not for me now on. An hour ago, before i am writing this, the problems comes to me. i thing i wanna run from this planet, but where i have to go?

i just imagine, if what i feel can be written down into a paper, i believe i will write many things. if my problem can be shared to somebody, i will do it also. but so sorry, i can't do it. share your problem to other only makes others will more sad, and give sympathy to you. "i have a principle to make everyone happy, so what for i have to share my problem".

# but these problems makes me difficult to breathe#oh God#

July, 30 2011. at 6.30 pm.

# please, do not really pay attention to my words. i just write something to make relax #

 

Regard,

 

Bung Rendy